improve my english...huh??

that is what i should do before..since i was 7 yrs old in school i've lenarn english until now...english is still the hard language to learn for me..why??..do i can't speak and write english as well?? YES!!..that's the really2 my weakness that i don't know why...everyone around me can speak and write english very well..sometimes i feel so bad and jelousy because i can't be like them...speak english fluently....confident to speak english to other people...maybe it is because i am in a 'kampung' enviroment...that's why i can't speak english...everyoone speak malay and of course in loghat terengganu...so there is no chance for me to speak english...if i speak english they will say that 'omputih mane plok sesat nih...' huh...so bad la terengganu people...that's why most of terengganurian cannot speak english....i'm trying and trying to speak english as well...trying to say the words and read a lots of english books or anything in english..from now i have to put some words everyday in my blog...so when i view my blog i can see those words and it's the easy way to remember the words...